Mental health

If you like me or find me attractive, whats then hoarding or holding you from exploring your inner thoughts or wants or desires…remember regrets is like emotional cancer and you only live once Yunno

Wanting a soft life is not a SIN. Barakah isn't found in burnout.

There’s a few times in my life when i got depressions, i wasn’t in a good place in everything, felt left behind in life and lost the last pillar of my life, my mum.

I was so depressed and thought about took my own life, but all im thinking was :

“So everything is a waste? All my ibadah is a waste bcs im gonna k**l myself? Hell no!”
(bcs if i took my own life, Allah wont accept you and i’ll be living in hell for eternity)

So there’s a tiny voice inside my heart to do this everytime when i nearly did that.

With tears on my face, snotty nose, pressure in my chest, i opened up my phone, listen to Ad-Dhuha and Al-Insyirah recital with headphones while reading the translation to reassuring myself over and over again that Allah has always been taken care of me, so dont be worry about what happens in this life. There’s always be an ease within hardships.

I repeat it to myself until that storm passed.
It always ended with a deep sleep (which also is in Quran verse if im not mistaken please correct me if im wrong)

By the time i wake up and remembering what happened i always say
“NOT A CHANCE, Syaithan 😤🫸🏻 👻”

My heart is still soft… life just taught me not to leave it unprotected. ❤️‍🩹

Confused? Ask yourself: Do I see myself with this person 10 years from now? If the answer is NO, walk away. You’re falling for someone who only exists in your imagination. And that means you’ve already lost. Moving on is hell. Save yourself.

Did you realize how beautiful is it? Protection often comes in the form of loss we don't understand at first?

What something you avoid now to protect your mental health?

I wish I knew then, what I know now.

Salam ummah I wanna do some bad
I wanna get intoxicated
I just got out of a really bad environment and I got ptsd im hypervigillant and an angry
Unfortunately I hold some grudges I haven't been doing my salah the way I want to and I just got over the 40 day hump I want worship under my belt in in a new community and the ahkis that have made contact with me are young and weak I let them know my situation and they ghost me I have no one to really understand me except me at this point