Mental health

so many heavy untold thoughts😔

(Man)ipulation
(He)adache
C(he)ater
(He)artbreak
(Men)tal breakdown
Argu(men)t
Disappoint(men)t
Embarrass(men)t

Sometimes the greatest achievement in life is not becoming rich, famous, or powerful.
It's reaching a point where your heart is free from jealousy, your tongue is free from hatred, and you can genuinely be happy for others.
That is a beautiful soul. ♥️

I might be okey but i'm not fine at all.🙂

Behind my smile, lies unspoken sorrows :)

Real eyes often know of real lies.

I feel so disgusting and segsually frustrated it’s insane.

I was doing so good for the past two weeks, going to the gym, eating clean, trying to be a better muslim…. Yet I fell hard last night.

Recently, and this has been a constant problem for me, I get flatulence issues during salah, and sometimes I have to redo my wudu as well. YES YES, I know about waswasa and it used to be much worse, but yesterday I felt so dejected when I farted during isha salah, I was so tired, that I went straight to watching corn. Idk why, but that was the straw that broke the camels back.

And I went on a binge, ordered disgusting food from DoorDash. and even dishonored my mom in the process, (I posted her pics)- this has been an ongoing issue for me, and then what’s worse is I started having thoughts of committing Shirk- this is what scared me even more.

Shirk through goonin- suggestions of “worshipping” a corn star- through watching corn. This is what scared me, I’ve never been so close to such a thing.

I was doing so good recently, and now I’m thinking about calling off work today. You don’t understand, I’ve been getting involved in the masjid, building my body, praying, finding jobs, etc. and last night I almost committed shirk

Why when I fall, I fall so hard

Ladies, pretend to be men in the comments and drop the lies they tell us

True and you shouldn't be waiting for no body.

I spent my whole life escaping from my parents 🥲