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Another NPD text me. He said

“I know im good looking” bla bla bla 🤣🤣🤣

Bismillah

Reminder to Self First

Set your heart and energy wisely, and you will protect your peace. Know where you stand with people, leave what no longer serves you, and keep your own well-being first. You hold the pen to your life—don’t hand that power to anyone else. ✨

Most of you give off unemployed

Which country do you support on the world cup?
Me: Spain ☺️

If you want to know if she'll make a good wife who will respect and listen to you, see how her relationship is with her father.
If you want to know if he'll make a good husband who will respect and be kind towards you, see how his relationship is with his mother.

"Giving chances" or "give a try" ?
Yes I trust in the above but it is not always possible because that means saying yes to everyone who says hi 🙃
So if I do not see potential of a future between us, I will not even start 🙏🏽 Thank you though for your kind interest. I appreciate it- and I may not say yes but I will personally make doa for you to find the happiness meant for you.

Why?
I do not want to feel force, give you less than you deserve, start something with false hope and invite disappointments (for both sides). I also believe that if we are meant to be, He will make it happen, Kun Faya Kun. Afterall He is the mover of hearts and He too produces the feelings.

Have I go for it, for anyone?
Yes. And yes energy for energy. If we choose each other, you'd get all you deserve and I'll fight to make you feel cared for. But if you hardly bother to get to know me further and simply wait for me to say hi or ask one sided questions, then goodbye.

What was the outcome of knowing those people so far?
Not a happy-together ending obviously. But while it lasted, I am grateful. Because we both did make the effort and in the process we also discover more about who we really want and need. We talk like adults, we say thank you and we continue our way.

The purpose of this post?
Just a self reflection actually. Lately Ive been questioning myself so much on what might be the problem of finding the right one and been weighing out so many things and all the different approaches/methods and the outcome. I havent been the best as well, yes I bet I am terrible too at times and Im truly sorry to those people 😭 (really not excusable 😩)
may He blessed them always 😭

Well anyway. There is no perfect way of finding the one really- what works for you may not work for me viceversa but at the end of the day I am thankful my conclusion is this- He knows best indeed.

I guess thats one of my dunya challenges. Afterall, He never promise marriage but for sure death is certain. Perhaps I should indeed focus more on "learning like we will live forever and practicing like we will die tomorrow". Also. Enjoy life as a single and chase after my dreams why not 😌

I'll continue making effort and searching in shaa Allah. And My soulmate if exists- he is already written on Loh Mahfuz. So Bismillahi in shaa Allah

The Way You Speak

I've realised something...

People on here think
the more slang you throw around,
the more attitude you give,
the more you mimic today's culture,
the more "triggered" you sound...
the more people will hear you.

But it's actually the opposite.

Patience is louder than ego.
Respect lasts longer than a clever comeback.

Anyone can be rude.
Anyone can shout.
It takes real character
to stay calm when everyone else is trying to drag you down.

Everyone wants forgiveness
until they're the one expected to give it.

On here, one sentence people don't like,
one opinion that doesn't fit the crowd,
one mistake...
and suddenly they're at your throat,
acting as if they've never needed grace themselves.

We're all human.
We all get things wrong.
So why is mercy always something we expect
but so rarely something we give?

Maybe the real strength
isn't in having the last word.

Maybe it's in knowing
that your words don't need to wound
just to be heard.

Because your mouth can make you look strong for a moment but your character is revealed by how you speak when you have every reason not to be kind.

I married my bad decisions... now we're raising consequences together. 🥲