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It's crazy how you invest your time getting to know someone, only to find out they're still emotionally waiting for their ex to return.
Like sis wait for him offline na 😕

Portugal not playing good need more intensity.

It was 10 pm. Jeff was sat at dinner, with his beautiful wife Martha of forever years and not long enough.

Suddenly, he slumped forward. His head hit the table. His wife jumped out of her seat, rushing over to him. She asked if he's okay, but he wouldn't reply. She tried shaking him, but he wouldn't move. She called 911, panicked.

EMS took him to the ER. CT scan showed a massive left-sided intracranial hemorrhage, bleeding profusely and building up so much pressure that it pushed out, crossing the midline and crushing the other half of his brain.

Jeff was admitted to the ICU, put on a ventilator. Neurosurgery said there was nothing to be done, the damage was far too great, he was unlikely to ever recover, if at all, and even if he did, he would never be able to do anything for himself again. Neurology saw him and said he had no brainstem reflexes, he'd suffered a catastrophic event, with a very poor prognosis. Family was made aware.

Palliative medicine was consulted to discuss goals of care: DNR w comfort care. Family wanted to wait until his kids could come see him in the hospital, after which he was taken off the ventilator and transfered out of the ICU. It was just a matter of time.

I saw Jeff when he was in the ICU. I saw him when he was transfered up to the regular floor, getting comfort care meds. I saw him in the morning, about 15 minutes before he passed, not that I knew it then, even though it was an expected inevitability. I got the call to pronounce his death while we were rounding with the team on other patients.

The attending and I went in. He asked me what we would need to do to pronounce death. Confirm absent heart sounds, lung sounds, pupillary light reflexes, Babinsky, painful stimulus response. He quickly did the needful, checked his eyes and respectfully closed them, as you should, and that's it.

Jeff.
Tuesday.
9:55 am.
The end.

Family informed. We carried on w our rounds. I went to "Patient Lookup" in the EMR a couple days later, saw Jeff's name. His profile was greyed out, labelled deceased. And that's it.

Jeff was alive. He was loved, maybe. He died alone. And just like that, Jeff was no more. Muslim or not, inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajioon.

Such is life. It is. Then it is not. When it is, we know. Know we not when it will be not. Live, if you are alive. Exhaust your energies. Get off the phone. Touch grass. Invest in your aakhirah. Do the Allaah Akbar. You don't know when, but one time, it'll be your last time. Make each one count.

Salaam.

🪷When we’re done navigate life’s hardships, rebuild our resilience, outgrow the desire for approval that often comes from a place of insecurity, past experiences, or a simple need for safety, then achieve emotional stability, and define our OWN VALUES…… We no longer need validations or let others' opinions sway us. We stand firm in who we are !🪷

I actually hate it when a woman instantly likes me back and leaves nothing for me to chase, major put off

Everyone, I have to tell you something! I

I have lice.

“The woods are lovely dark and deep”

Muzz is out here serving me sketchy enlargement pill ads but last time i checked i’m not packing. I don't care how good the discount is there is literally nothing to enlarge here shaz fix the settings i don’t need more body dysmorphia

Today I read a combo I hadn't seen before (Not married before) (With children) 😅