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Nobody walks away from someone they want.

If someone isn’t choosing you, if they’re not fighting for you, not showing up, not trying, then that silence speaks louder than any excuse ever could.

Don’t chase, don’t beg, and don’t shrink yourself just to be kept in someone’s life.

It hurts when the one you gave your heart to treats it like it was optional.

But let them go, not because you don’t care, but because you’ve finally learned to care enough about yourself.

Choose to stand in your own light, even if it feels lonely.

Choose to vibe alone, not out of pride, but out of self-respect.

One day, someone will come along who doesn’t make you question your worth, someone who will love you the way you always deserved.

And when that day comes, you’ll be glad you didn’t settle for someone who couldn’t even try.

Until then, walk forward with grace, knowing that you are enough, even when someone else fails to see it.

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I turned 35 on June.

This isn't about one day. It's about every day. The endless gray that stretches behind me and the same gray that waits ahead. I wake up exhausted from dreams I can't remember, and the first thought is always: another one.

I can't bond with people anymore. Not really. I sit across from someone, hear their words, watch their lips move—but there's glass between us. Thick, soundproof glass. They laugh. I smile on cue. Inside, I feel nothing but the familiar ache of being utterly, permanently alone.

I've tried.Allah, I've tried. But every connection feels like a performance. Every conversation drains me. So I stop reaching out. Then they stop too. And I'm left with the proof I was always waiting for: I was never meant to be held.

The loneliness isn't sharp. It's dull. Heavy. A second skin I can't peel off. It follows me to bed, sits with me at meals, rides shotgun in my car. Some nights I talk to myself just to hear a voice that isn't my own inner critic.

My family? I love them from a distance now. Too far to hurt.The guilt is crushing, but the alternative—letting them see me like this—is worse.

But here I am. Still breathing. Still waking up. Still writing this.

Maybe that means something. Maybe it doesn't.

But I'm still here.

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